Decision Time.

Oh hey you're back! sweet. So I'm supposed to be sitting in Shakespeare class right about now but I decided to be a rebel for once and cut class. I do have my reasons though, I have other school work that needs to be done. I really shouldn't be here right now but I have a ton of stuff on my mind.--Hold that thought, my Pop Tarts are done--

OK back. These Pop Tarts are glorious. Anyway, what was I saying? Oh yeah decisions. So last night while I'm trying to fall asleep I get to thinking about stuff. Like do I really want to be going to school for this? Am I really that passionate about teaching? Will I get a job when I gradutate? Will I be happy? Its hard for me to answer any of those questions, and that my friend is scary. I feel like I should be all gun-ho about this but I'm not. I've pretty much have been going with the flow since I started college basically taking classes that I needed but not sure if I should even be here. Looking back I kind of wish I opened my eyes more because basically everyone and their moms (literally) are going into teaching. That annoys me so much. Like really? Are they in it to actually teach or do they just want summers off? I really don't know.

So now I'm thinking, where do I go from here? Whats my next step? I'm not actually in the teaching program just yet so I still have some time. If I knew sooner I'd be doing something with music but hey maybe I still can. I am just so confused with my life right now and I'm in the hole a couple grand (a couple? HA! more like a ton).

I'll keep you guys posted.

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